Thank the Good Lord Above that Isaac is as stubborn as a
mule. Actually, it’s not just
Isaac. It’s a genetic characteristic
given to all our children in healthy dosage by both my husband and me. But…thank God.
Isaac is not shy about indicating what it is that he
wants. He may point or even tell you “I
want___” (Insert Veggie Tale, yellow key (to the computer cabinet), cookie,
pizza, etc.). When he’s trying to be
cute, Isaac will look at me with an open face and puppy dog eyes and carefully
enunciate, “May I have_____ please?” He
fully expects to be given access to his desires and sometimes he is. Sometimes, though a mama has to say
“No”. Isaac is steadfast. It can be near impossible to divert his
interest once he has his mind made up.
While I could deal without the behaviors that sometimes accompany his
incessant request, I am grateful for his painstaking perseverance.
Isaac’s sweet stubborn soul gives me strength. Some would say that it is Isaac’s autism that
drives him to perseverate on a certain thing.
I think it’s more. I certainly
know that Isaac has autism…but I also know that a part of his nature is a wholly
inherited stubborn strength and perseverance.
That knowledge gives me hope.
There have been tough days on this journey that Isaac and I
have been on. There have been dark times
when fear has all but overtaken me.
There have been awful uncertainties that have actually materialized into
realities. There have been moments that
I have questioned whether I was strong enough to endure. And then I look at my sweet stubborn
children. All of them really… though
Isaac does tend to exhibit that character strength a bit more vehemently than
the others. I watch him struggle and
push and persevere. He will not
quit. He will not be swayed. His desire will be addressed.
Thank God!
Because of my son, I know that I can…endure. I can fight.
I can make myself be heard through any darkness or uncertainty. I can stand against diagnosis or bureaucrat. I may be horribly frightened…but I know that
I will stand and endure. I see his
stubborn streak and know that I have the same one…only broadened by twenty-five
more years of experience than my boy’s.
God has given my son many gifts….but today I am thankful for
the inspirational gift of stubbornness.
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